He had so much love inside him, he was so laid back,nothing seemed to worry him. he used to make animal noises round the house all the time like some kind of hooligan, he was my big brother that looked out for me, he was so protective over me and i loved it. i never wanted him to leave home, i cried when he moved out.I loved having to making him his morning brew even though i new it meant entering his room with a very distinctive smell which im sure anyone who has been in his room will agree ;). i really dont know how to put it in words how i feel, its like ive lost a part of me and im never ever going to get it back, no matter how hard i try. ive gone to get my phone out and ring him a few times, its weird because your in my phonebook yet there wont ever be anyone on the other end of the phone to talk to. No-one will ever no how i feel, all they can do its guess. i really wish you are ok wherever you are, your clearly not in heaven because i dont think theres a heaven, if there was, there'd be a God and if there was a God you'd be alive still. you didnt do anything to deserve this, people say theres a reason for everything but i dont know, all i can do is hope your in a better place. i can still remember laying by your side in the hospital and just praying you'd be ok. but anyway this isnt how we remember you, EVERYONE remembers you for being binny, the chilled out, laid back, friendly, always skint, always munching, charming, loud mouthed best looking mixed race man in the world. dont rest in peace rest in paradise :) Siobhan, (: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx